Your day

A few months ago I posted Adele's song and today it became reality. To finish things off, No, I do not wish for someone like you...

Today

I know I shouldn't but I just read a few jounal entries that I wrote before setting up this blog. After reading about 4, I just couldn't continue because all those emotions that I felt at that time just came rushing back. I don't ever want to feel like that again. Insignificant. I wish I am a big enough person to say I wish you well and all the best in life but I am not. I will not curse you and wish you go to hell either. I just hope one day you feel like how I felt. Good and bad, I hope you feel it all. After all, a retribution in life will be much easier than one in the afterlife.

It's a few months early...

'I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.' - Adele

Down.

I just feel so weird today.
It's like I'm cranky yet so upset for no apparent reason.
My heart is hurting.
A sense of restlessness surrounds me.
Like I just want to run.
Run from what exactly?
Why?

26

It's your birthday today.
I will not message to wish you a happy birthday because either way, I doubt you'd care.
So instead, on this day, I would like to thank you with this post.
I had thought you were everything I had ever looked for.
Thank you for showing me what I do not want in a partner.
Thank you for making me realise how wrong I was. If not I'd have been blinded forever.
Thank you for letting me go. That allowed me to feel what it is really like to be loved and to have that security you never gave.
Thank you for hurting me and making me stronger.