Praying for an answer.

I really hate my current seat.
It makes me sad and depressed all the time.
I'm scared to be honest.
What if I get worse and slip into depression..?
Its making me nervous just thinking about it.
I really think there is something wrong with me.

Down.

I just feel so down.
Like I want to cry but for no specific reason.
What is wrong with me?
Just can't get rid of that heaviness.