Thank you Ya Allah

For about a little longer than a month, I have been praying every day that if we were not meant to be together, for God to not let our paths cross. And yesterday, at an event you should have been at, when all your group members were present, you were missing.

And THAT, I will accept as a sign from God. So thank you God, for answering my prayers. For giving me guidance when you know I've been lost for so long.

I went not because I wanted to see you.
I went because our mutual friend invited me.
I went because it is for a good cause.
I went for the kids.
I lack the words to express the relief I felt when I did not see you there.
I swear while walking to the place that my legs got so shaky and weak that I had to hold on to my friend for strength and to keep myself steady.

To my surprise, I completely enjoyed myself yesterday. I felt like a child. Free. Uninhibited. It's been while. How I miss laughing :) And its all due to you not being there because if you were, I'l definitely not feel like that.

Thank you YA ALLAH once again and now I pray you help me heal and give me strength.
To let go, to be happy and to love again.