It is what it is.

Every breath.
Every heartbeat.
The hurt, it remains.
I HATE IT.
Sometimes, its like I want to feel sad just to feel something.
To not be numb.
Which is stupid because why would I want to keep making myself upset.
And then I realise what I am doing and I stop.
I keep myself busy and focus on other stuff.
Because I'm determined to make something of myself and not let it break me down further.

But I know deep down that the hurt is not going away...