Not mad at all...

How mad am I?
Well honestly I'm not mad at all. Though I wish I could be. It'd be easier.
I'm scared.
Of what?
Of losing you.
But you see, I've already lost you.
So I guess there is really nothing to be scared of anymore?

Something I have realised, if I want you to not be scared to say what's on your mind, then I shouldn't be either.
Why was I so scared?
I have a right to say what I feel without being scared of losing you.
Because like I've said, I've already lost you.
So don't be scared if I say something, its taken me a long time to gather my courage.
Don't make it hard for me by making the situation awkward ok?
Just always be honest with me ok?