Today

Met with some poly friends today.
Bowled and ate at secret recipe.
Good friends, Great day.

Till I got home and cried my heart out. HAIZ.

I'm happy for my friends, that they are moving forward in their lives.
Conversations on engagements, rings, flats, marriage, kids.
Planning a future with someone. I am truly happy for them because they deserve to be happy.
I'm so envious of them. Its just that it reminds me that once again I'm alone. But whereas, a year ago it wouldn't have affected me, now I just feel so dejected.
I'm not planning to get married anytime soon yet the peer pressure to be with someone is so overwhelming.
And the emptiness I feel is so devastating that I just don't want to feel anymore.