Alhamdulillah.

"If you love someone more than HIM, HE will take him away from you"
I read the above on someone's blog about her journey with love and how she found God again.
The revelation suddenly hit me and I just couldn't control my emotions and broke down.
Astaghfirullah. It was never my intention.
Ya ALLAH, maafkanlah hambaMu yang lemah ini.

Thank YOU for not giving up on me when I gave up on myself.
Thank YOU for always being there when I felt so hopeless and lost.
Thank YOU for giving me all that YOU have given.
Thank YOU for remembering me even at times where I placed the world before the afterlife.
Thank YOU for giving me another chance to repent before YOU send death upon me.
Kerana dunia ini hanya pinjaman dan akhirat itu buat selamanya.

Alhamdulillah, I am truly fortunate that YOU have opened my heart to love YOU above all else.
I seek your guidance Ya ALLAH and pray to YOU that YOU help me on my journey to be a better Muslim with each passing day.

YOU did after all make us in pairs. Though I never questioned YOU, I now understand why YOU took him away from me. If YOU believe that was needed to make me a better person as well as a better Muslim, Alhamdulillah I will accept it whole heartedly. I believe that if he is really the one for me, we will meet again. And if he is not, I have faith that YOU will send someone better for me InsyaALLAH. I trust YOU and believe that what YOU have written for me is what YOU deem best for me.

Ya ALLAH, jauhkanlah and lindungilah aku daripada hasutan dan bisikan syaitan.
Berikanlah aku kekuatan dan kesabaran untuk menempuhi cabaran-cabaran hidup.
Peliharalah and lindungilah mereka yang aku cintai and sayangi dan berikanlah mereka kebahagian dalam kehidupan mereka.
Berikanlah aku penunjuk agar aku dapat menjadi seorang yang lebih solehah.
Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.