Sometimes I just want to disappear and never come back.

I don't know what you want from me.
You've been ignoring me for such a long time and then now suddenly you're contacting me again.
I'm not going to lie, it makes me happy.
But I'm scared of having hope.
So I'm trying to hold myself back.
What do you want from me?

If you want to start over you should tell me.
So I can be completely myself.
I want everything to be normal again.
I want to laugh with you again.
I miss teasing you.
But I'm scared of getting my hopes up only to have them plummeting down once again.
Because if what you want is JUST friendship, I can't do that.
I'm not strong enough.

You promised me you'd always be honest with me.
If you are just playing with me, God help you.

I miss my grimace so much and all I want to do is give him a great big hug! :(