STOP

I want to stop hoping.
Because with hope comes disappointment.
With disappointment comes sadness.
And frankly, I'm sick and tired of being sad.
Because that is not who I am.
I am someone who enjoys life, who laughs at the slightest thing.
Who brushes things and people that don't matter, off and out of her life.
I want my smile to reach my eyes again.
To giggle just for the fun of it.

I need and want to find that person again.
Because I am not happy with this person I've turned into.
And really, no one can help me except myself.
So, Ya Allah, I pray to you, please give me the strength to forget and move on.
Because that is what I have decided to do.
I believe that man I love is somewhere deep down but I cannot wait for him.
Because waiting for him is like waiting for rain in this heatwave.
Useless and disappointing.

Please stop sending me signs about him.
Please give me the patience to live my life knowing that you will send someone for me one day. Please give me that patience to wait.
Please make me believe that that someone is worth waiting for.
Because I know he will be.
I have faith he will be.

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