2 steps fwd, 1 step back.

Woke up today to a dream of you.
In my dream, I was sleeping at home when i heard some noise at the back of my house.
Opened my window and saw some of your friends. So shocked. Continued to scan around.
One by one. There they were.
From what you guys and gals are wearing and bringing, looks like about to go touring.
Scanned the crowd and there you were.
Looking the same as I remembered.
Felt a twinge of sadness.
Crept out quietly and hid beside a staircase just observing you.
God how long I've not seen you and how much I miss you. :(
So as I crouched down low observing you guys getting ready to move off again, I wondered why of all places you guys stopped here to take a break when you know thats where I live.
As I hear engines starting one by one, I willed you not to go. How my heart don't want to see you going off. When will I see you again? Will I ever see you again?
Just as you were about to get on your bike, something seems to be going through your mind and you switch the engine off.
Signalling to your friends to wait and turn off their engines too, you walk towards the staircase.
I crouched lower, hoping you don't find me there.
But you continue walking, down the stairs, towards my house.
In my mind, I was thinking, 'what are you doing? why are you walking this direction?'
As you are walking down, you pause, turned towards where I was and I was busted.
I don't remember how it happened but then we were sitting beside each other and holding hands on the stairs and talking.
I don't remember what it was about but how I've missed talking to you.
How I miss you holding me.
Tears flow and you wiped them off my cheeks with your hand.
That only makes me cry harder.
I don't remember what happens next but then I woke up.

Dear God, please tell me what it is you are trying to tell me.
Give me more signs like you've always done.
Do you not want me to move on? Are you telling me to not give up?
I'm as confused as ever.
Please God, help me through this period in my life.